My biggest fear just happens to be the thing I want most in the world. How do I go about getting that one thing when I can't get over my fear of it? how do I get over the fear when it has become the only thing I have to hold on to?
I have an inability to trust. How can I trust anyone else when everyone I have ever trusted has disappointed or betrayed me? How do I let go of all the bad when there is no good to take its place? How do I move on with positivity when the only way I know how to function is with the pain? The pain and the negativity have become a part of me; a part of who I am. I need it to survive. I don't know how to not have it in me or with me or around me. Where do I turn for a chance to move on? After a lifetime with it, it's all that I know. It's all that I am. It's all that I have been. I wish I knew how to survive without it. I need to know how to thrive even with it.
